Today I finally got my ass in gear and went for a run in the park and decided to take a picture! It was nice and cool and perfect for a run. Finally getting in the groove of things and it feels so great to do my own thing again! Now to continue with my dating history...
The next guy who really made things in my world change was probably the quietest, most adorable guy I’ve ever met. I met him when he was doing a class project with my two best friends in grade 10 history. I chilled with them while they worked and ended up thinking he was really cute. I liked how quiet and shy he was. We started seeing each other with friends at the skating rink and around school. Eventually he built up the courage to ask me out. We went to a movie, which my mom dropped me off at. He was cute but a bit awkward which at the time I didn't mind, I was happy to be hanging out with a boy. We went a couple more dates and he eventually became my first boyfriend. But three weeks later I decided to end it. I didn’t feel ready for a relationship. He seemed really invested which I wasn’t. He really really liked me and I wasn't ready for all that came with being in a relationship. I broke up with him over the phone (poor guy).
Skipping 3 years later, I was his first real kiss and make out, go me! So yes, that means we never kissed while we were dating haha, sounds so weird now thinking about it. He didn't date anyone or see any one within that time. He had remain completely single from grade 10 until halloween night of 2014. That was the last time I ever hooked up with him. I think kissing him that night was a huge mistake because I feel like it might have given him false hope. It probably came off like it meant something and I really regret doing it because I didn’t want to hurt him again.
Now looking back at that whole 3 week relationship it shows so much about who I am. I didn’t like how quiet he was. All I remember about our conversations is that I was the one who was carrying them. I asked most of the questions and I need someone who is more open. I like when people just tell me a lot about themselves without me having to ask every single question. I don’t know about you but, a guy who can make a good conversation really makes him more attractive to me.
He also seemed really available which sounds really bad but, what I mean by it is that is, he seemed like he didn’t have much of a life outside of me. Like he’d drop everything to hang out with me and while thats sweet, it’s nice to see him have his own priorities. I love my time with my girls so I like when guys love time with their guys. I don’t want to be attached at the hip or feel like I’m your only friend. If it comes off harsh, I’m sorry but it’s so true. We should both have our lives apart and together.
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